Alla Trubacheva has lived in east Ukraine since she trained as a doctor more than four decades ago but is now having doubts that the battle-scarred industrial town of Siversk is still for her.
The hospital where she worked has been shelled to ruin by Russian forces.
One of her colleagues -- cut down by artillery -- lies buried outside. Staff and patients fled long ago.
It's when missiles shred trees and explode the cottages next to her own that she comes closest to calling it quits.
But something is holding her back.
"Well, people say they need me!" said Trubacheva, leaning back embarrassed, her wide smile betraying a peppering of gold teeth she is shy to expose.
"I'm the only one left, a family doctor, a jack of all trades."
More than a year after Russia invaded, Trubacheva is a lifeline to hold-out residents when its forces -- or even just everyday ailments -- turn on what's left of Siversk's population of 10,000.
The exodus of her patient list, the bombing of her workplace and a new triage network catering to injured troops all point to how the war has forced Ukraine to overhaul healthcare provision.
The ailing come day and night to Trubacheva's small office, with a puppy-themed calendar on the wall and plastic garden furniture for visitors to sit by the stove.
Mondays are busiest.
- 'He would have died' -
"Headaches, sore throats, high blood pressure, stress, insomnia -- you've got it all," she told AFP.
She recounted how one patient last year -- one among around 200 that she keeps track of in a school exercise book -- was struggling with a blocked trachea.
"We always need medicine, and we need it even more during times of war."
Blunt thumps of far-off shelling mingle with bird song in her garden. The tail of a missile -- sprinkled with spring blossoms -- sticks out from beneath a fruit tree.
That near miss last year underscores a wave of attacks by Russian forces that Kyiv says have killed at least 106 medical workers and destroyed or damaged more than 540 healthcare facilities.
Several recently dug graves lie beneath the caved-in roof of the abandoned two-storey facility strewn with broken glass and chunks of brick.
The wind whips through its blown-out windows and carries the booms of nearby artillery fire -- Russian and Ukrainian -- through wards and operating rooms accumulating dust.
- 'Not everyone leaves' -
The hospital used to have capacity for around 250 patients across several wards.
Now, 25 dazed-looking and elderly Ukrainians displaced by Russia's advance live in its basement to hide from shelling.
President Volodymyr Zelensky ordered civilians in the region to leave last July but the hospital held out for six more months.
"All bedridden patients who had strokes or who couldn't walk were taken out," said 51-year-old Elena, a nurse who remains at the hospital and hands out medicine if people come.
"There's shelling here every day. The buildings were destroyed a long time ago," she added.
Trubacheva said she salvaged much from the shelled laboratory at the hospital after it was hit last summer and an uptick in humanitarian support means her small office is well stocked.
But that is little consolation.
In place of the hospital, ambulances now dot roads torn up by tank tracks throughout the war-battered Donetsk region, ready to extract soldiers wounded in nearby trenches.
The military, Trubacheva explained, have their own medical ecosystem that exists in parallel to hers. But of course, she wouldn't turn a soldier away.
"If they have a headache, why wouldn't I give them a painkiller?"
What advice does she prescribe to patients grappling with the stresses of war?
"People become attached to where they live, you see. It's scary, but not everyone leaves."
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